Sometimes I feel the only thing coming out of my mouth are the negative thoughts tumbling in my head.

Often those thoughts roll and merge until I don’t even notice the blue of the sky or my eyes that are still able to see it, if I just would stop, breath and see it all.

I have to consciously list 5 things everyday I am grateful for. Five events that I appreciate.

Some days five is a lot.

1. Food
2. Clothes
3. Home
4. Employment
5. Family

Rather vague. There is no intimacy with my life in that list.

1. The late night run with Ciera to Cheese cake factory to share a Godiva
2. My after work comfy’s that Wistie shared with me from the Gap.
3. My patio where I can sit, lay and ponder next to a warm fire.
4. An assignment that is so incredibly challenging, but feeling a sense of pride and ownership in the effort.
5. Planning a fondue night with my kids at the end of the month. YUM!

That wasn’t easy, but I felt a spark of joy.

Another day. I can do this.